This shooting at an Orlando nightclub hits too close to home for me because I know so many in the LGBTQ community who are my friends and have been my online supporters over the years. I've been to a gay club in South Korea and it's one of the best places I've been to for dancing, fun, and the feeling of freedom.
When I heard this tragedy, my heart sang, and admittedly I felt choked up with a few tears in my eyes.
This tragedy to me is basic homophobia under the veil of terrorism. It's the root of fear and hatred for the other person because they live a different life from us, and we just don't know how to deal with it. If you've never been around it, and you hear all that's bad, that's all you're going to know. Then, when you see it, and only know those bad things, you make that judgement call. It's because of those judgments that we are taught as we grow and within our community do we learn and decipher how to think, even under durest.
The other issue is the anger, what this shooter felt. He had anger management and abuse issues that were not only not reported, but were not taken care of. It's that whole mental illness issue that no one is talking about and why I want the dust to settle so that it cane be discussed. We've made mental illness a stigma and are afraid to talk about it because it's such a heavy topic to deal with. Hospitals have gotten rid of their psych wards because they could no longer afford to pay for the upkeep and for taking care of them. What would happen if this anger and hatred were discussed with a psychologist in therapy? Would something like this be prevented? Who knows?
With everyone saying that we need more of this and that, my thing is that well, you have laws, why are you ignoring what you have? Why did you create the law you wanted in the first place and not follow-up on it's implementation? It's called using what's in your toolbox and not buying new tools to put in your closet or mansion to build up like hoarder who's underlying psychosis is that of depression and wanting to show what a perfect little world they live in, but can't and don't know how.
That's what's happened to us. That's what our current laws have created. As with any bans or any regulations, someone or something will slip through the cracks because we were not able to keep an eye out or keep watch. Frankly, we can't because as a whistle blower we are condemned or even fired from our jobs for speaking out. If we can't speak out on what we're afraid of, then it's no wonder we have fear and anger with not only people who are different from us and live a different way from us, but also within ourselves because we are not allowed to suppress that feeling any longer.
We seriously need to take off the mask and look at ourselves. Unfortunately, this tragedy and this issue will not change that because we always talk about what we can, but not enough of actual doing. It's either put up or shut up, or we have no one to blame but ourselves for not taking the right action, despite those who tell us to be quiet.
And remember who your elected officials are. They work for us and they are a reflection of us. How do you want to feel safe? Who will represent that safety for you? If it's because you're angry and scared, guess who is going to represent you. If it's out of love, that's your representative.
This is a time not to point fingers but to look in the mirror at ourselves as a country, culture, and most importantly, who we are as people and individuals. It's time to put ourselves through our own therapy and educate ourselves of the other, because it is from that other that I truly believe, we learn about ourselves and learn that really the other is just like us, especially inside. It's just what they look like, how they live, and how they think that are different.